Season of Desperation

Lately, I have noticed myself deeply desiring something to fulfill me. I have reached the point here in Indonesia of feeling often times lonely, lacking motivation and discipline. These feelings and emotions have driven me to seek fulfillment. I find myself online at Starbucks searching for something to entertain and bring enjoyment to my life. Something new and fulfilling. I am desperately thirsty, yet it seems like nothing quenches my thirst.

It is at this very point that God has begun to work in my heart. I know that His word alone will sustain me, yet I run to the internet, future travel ideas, and movies to preoccupy my thoughts. What I have found is that these attempts to seek fulfillment exceedingly drain the life and hope from my heart, soul and mind. As I find myself digging into God's word more and more I find sustenance, I find joy, I find encouragement, I find peace, I find truth and I find life.

These two verses in particular God has been using to speak into my life:

Romans 3:11, There are none that understand, and none that seek God.

It is God who seeks us. It is the Holy Spirit that gives us understanding. As much as I may try to seek God, I fail in my attempts. My strength proves weak, frail and pathetic. Therefore, I pray that God continues to seek and pursue me, so that I may be compelled with great passion to desperately know Him.

James 4:8, Draw near to God, and He will draw near to you.

In correspondence, I pray that I may draw near to You, Lord, so that You will draw near to me. Stir within me the desire, desperation and craving to know Your Word, to know Truth. It is here that I find satisfaction and sustenance for life. As God draws near to me through reading His word, I find myself completely satisfied.

I hope that these verses and thoughts encourage, motivate and compel you in the deepest of ways. I hope these passages of scripture pierce your hearts, as they have so relentlessly pierced mine. God's Word is powerful!

An Image

What is in an image? A memory? Or, perhaps, a thought? If an image were to be broken down to the finest strokes of its existence, would we understand it? Or, would the vast intricacies perplex and distort the perfection of the image. It might be that we become so preoccupied with solving the mystery of the image that we entirely lose sight of its intended purpose. Nonetheless, others may not care enough about the image to even appreciate it. Does than the value and purpose of the image, memory or thought become insignificant?

Whether we acknowledge it or not, our minds are imprisoned by these images, memories and thoughts. The emotions induced by the images and scenes leave us captivated and enamored, yet perpetually discontent. As soon as gratification abounds, it abandons us into a pool of unforgiving emotions. Although remnants of that gratification become instilled within the memoirs of the mind, nothing again will ever equally replicate the now fragmented sentiments. Will the images ever make sense? Do they have meaning? Or, are we perpetually inundating our minds with habitual hopes to comprehend what was never intended to be revealed?

Stop Believing the Lies

Would if we could all stop believing the lies that Satan has embedded in our minds? Would if we could realize the greatness in capacity that we have inherited in Christ? Would if we began to live out the Truth that "anything is possible with Christ"? Instead, we continue to allow the lies of this world to taunt and blockade us from triumph. We have been given the arsenal to conquer the world, yet we leave it in our homes. I hope that more and more people will begin to see the greatest in who they are. We are dead to ourselves. "It is no longer I who live, but Christ lives in me". Once we begin to live this out the world will be in a lot of trouble. Fellow believers, we are not limited by ourselves, we are not limited by this world, but we are conquerors of this world. don't believe the lie that you can't, just walk in Faith and Spirit. God will prove faithful.